My father died a few days ago... I don't know what I am feeling. There is some sort of disconnect between my body and my emotions. I shake but my mind is blank.... my neck is snapping and cracking but I am speaking calmly. ........When I laugh it is just a little too much and too loud. I feel like swearing constantly.... and it is like there is this building electronic buzz inside my body........ I don't know what I am doing right now.
The funeral is on Friday, if I make it through that I think I will be able to reconnect the wires that are all crossed and fucked up.
The funeral is on Friday, if I make it through that I think I will be able to reconnect the wires that are all crossed and fucked up.
