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Mishap

I cropped in tight here because I messed this one up while drawing it..... it was/is frustrating.... Still not sure what I will do with it I could:

.... crop it and keep just the parts I like, pretending that the rest of the body doesn't exist.

....put it away for a month see what I think later,  after I let go of my anger....  Right now I can only see what it would have been .... but that will fade.......... and I think it could be rescuable if I change my attitude. 

.... Keep working on it using my anger to fuel me...

Scan and play with it digitally. 

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I can all ready feel my frustration fading, but I also feel apathy setting in...... I never care about my work for too long.

 I will update, if there ever is an update. 

Carnival

If it had a smell I think it would be a mix of beer cigarettes and cotton candy.

Spill ATC

Quick Wolf

Raven 2 & Blue

Here is the source image ..... you can see it was my fault, not theirs that the tail got chopped :) 

http://landkeks-stock.deviantart.com/art/Raven-3-592630712

Altered Red Crow

Sometimes I am a little paranoid about filters .... they homogenize things and give them a polish that I feel I am unable to accomplish by myself..... 

Often I will find a filtered image of mine superior to the original ..... to a silly degree.... 

However in this case I prefer the filtered image for a few specific reasons. 

-I like the way the red pops

-some ugly/lazy mark making by me has been covered up

-there is a better sense of focus 

here is a link to the original:

http://chobek.deviantart.com/art/Red-Crow-614469729

Empty Sad

I spent the night crying... well whimpering and leaking tears as I slipped in and out of sleep. I feel empty and exhausted and the flesh on my face feels seasoned... tight and slightly burney ..... I feel like I have a crusty sheen.............
I hate this feeling...  it has been awhile ..............
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I had so many thoughts,  going a bunch of different directions .....
I felt compelled to write this, but now.... I feel kind of empty--- and the drive to express myself is gone .........................................................................

I hate crying.... Why am I being such a girl.....

---update.... Everything is fine now I was being a baby----

10 years ago... A Journal I Discovered Again

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Fidra