When I was young...early grade school... I remember lying on the couch crying...my Mom asked me what was wrong but I said "nothing, just sometimes I like to be sad" she said OK and let me cry...I remember being surprised that she accepted that answer.
This entry will be a list of moments that make me cry. I want to center on the times I felt touched by music, movies, stories, or any art.
I find an empathy and connectivity in sadness that Is unique to that emotion..... I struggle with this next sentence... Words are failing me a little, but with joy or rage or fear... I will experience the emotions through my own filter, but sadness can bury itself in my substance and become mine, become its' own experience.... An experience that has a devastating depth... And a lingering sweetness.
That said a lot of these examples are really silly ... My triggers when I lay them out are a little foolish... But I won't run, I embrace that they are dumb....
Without more disclaimers, here is my list.
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-Puff the Magic Dragon.
Can't make it through the song without crying... Never have... I tried.
Lyrics
Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honali
Little Jackie Paper loved that rascal Puff
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other fancy stuff
...
Together they would travel on a boat with billowed sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on Puff's gigantic tail
Noble kings and princes would bow whene'er they came
Pirate ships would lower their flags when Puff roared out his name
...
A dragon lives forever, but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant's rings make way for other toys
One gray night it happened, Jackie Paper came no more
And Puff, that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar
His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane
Without his lifelong friend, Puff could not be brave
So Puff, that mighty dragon, sadly slipped into his cave
Oh, Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honali
Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honali
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Episode #2 of Kimi ni Todoke
If you have never seen the show... this will be hard to encapsulate... but in general the show is about a sweet but awkward girl named Sawako... people avoid her because of their own superstitions but also because she expresses her feelings poorly. There is a dichotomy between her personality and the person people believe her to be.
In episode #2 of the anime there is a scene where the students draw lots to choose seating assignments...no one wants to be seated by her. You view the scene with a monologue of her thoughts playing over the activity. She goes from hopeful... to hurt .. to resigned (sho ga nai -I think it is a phrase that means can't be helped or it's expected ). Her friends push back against the flow of their peers to sit next to her so it ends happy.... but there is something about the transition of her mood... wanting -> rejection -> acceptance... it just kills me.
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-Liebestraum
on the piano specifically.....
I wandered on to it one night on youtube....after watching hours of pop and lock competitions for whatever reason...
I just started crying. Even now there is a point in the song and I just feel something twisting inside of me. I can't tell you why... I don't seem to have any associations with it...maybe something I can't remember??? ...and I knew the song... it didn't always touch me....but ever since that night I cry.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpOtuoHL45Y
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"The Giving Tree" by Shel Silverstein....
I read it first in college on Joe's recommendation ... when I cried in the bookstore he bought me the book....
that fucking book is wonderful...and terrible.
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-The Beatles song " She's Leaving Home"
-The song "A Daisy a Day"
-Movie "5 Centimeters per Second"
This entry will be a list of moments that make me cry. I want to center on the times I felt touched by music, movies, stories, or any art.
I find an empathy and connectivity in sadness that Is unique to that emotion..... I struggle with this next sentence... Words are failing me a little, but with joy or rage or fear... I will experience the emotions through my own filter, but sadness can bury itself in my substance and become mine, become its' own experience.... An experience that has a devastating depth... And a lingering sweetness.
That said a lot of these examples are really silly ... My triggers when I lay them out are a little foolish... But I won't run, I embrace that they are dumb....
Without more disclaimers, here is my list.
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
-Puff the Magic Dragon.
Can't make it through the song without crying... Never have... I tried.
Lyrics
Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honali
Little Jackie Paper loved that rascal Puff
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other fancy stuff
...
Together they would travel on a boat with billowed sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on Puff's gigantic tail
Noble kings and princes would bow whene'er they came
Pirate ships would lower their flags when Puff roared out his name
...
A dragon lives forever, but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant's rings make way for other toys
One gray night it happened, Jackie Paper came no more
And Puff, that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar
His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane
Without his lifelong friend, Puff could not be brave
So Puff, that mighty dragon, sadly slipped into his cave
Oh, Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honali
Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honali
_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_
Episode #2 of Kimi ni Todoke
If you have never seen the show... this will be hard to encapsulate... but in general the show is about a sweet but awkward girl named Sawako... people avoid her because of their own superstitions but also because she expresses her feelings poorly. There is a dichotomy between her personality and the person people believe her to be.
In episode #2 of the anime there is a scene where the students draw lots to choose seating assignments...no one wants to be seated by her. You view the scene with a monologue of her thoughts playing over the activity. She goes from hopeful... to hurt .. to resigned (sho ga nai -I think it is a phrase that means can't be helped or it's expected ). Her friends push back against the flow of their peers to sit next to her so it ends happy.... but there is something about the transition of her mood... wanting -> rejection -> acceptance... it just kills me.
__________________________
-Liebestraum
on the piano specifically.....
I wandered on to it one night on youtube....after watching hours of pop and lock competitions for whatever reason...
I just started crying. Even now there is a point in the song and I just feel something twisting inside of me. I can't tell you why... I don't seem to have any associations with it...maybe something I can't remember??? ...and I knew the song... it didn't always touch me....but ever since that night I cry.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpOtuoHL45Y
__________________________
"The Giving Tree" by Shel Silverstein....
I read it first in college on Joe's recommendation ... when I cried in the bookstore he bought me the book....
that fucking book is wonderful...and terrible.
____________________________
-The Beatles song " She's Leaving Home"
-The song "A Daisy a Day"
-Movie "5 Centimeters per Second"
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